It’s amazing how a 5 minute morning “conversation” can turn an entire perfectly beautiful early spring day into something that is senseless and dull, something to simply trudge through.

And it really is my own fault – I have poor sense of timing, of safety, and I don’t do nearly the right share of work. And I apologize too quickly.
I was told to think about it and reflect on what I am doing wrong, but I still don’t know how to change anything, apart from me quitting my pointless mind-numbing job.