This waking up every two hours all night following by the final 5:45am wakeup and walk to let R sleep has got to stop… I just wish I knew how. It’s been going on for too long, he is almost a year old but still sleeps like a newborn

thoroughly exhausted and operating largely on autopilot. Yesterday’s beach trip I could muster, but not much more focussing than that. I really should have gone alone instead of with a friend so I could sleep.
Maybe I could sleep today instead of the planned trip to Guggenheim but I’m terrified of what next week will be when I actually do need to focus.