One thing that I keep having in the back of my mind – after November, avoid subway if I can, avoid flying, avoid any crowded place. But how can I, if I can’t even bike?
It is not entirely impossible that Democrats lose, and if win, I’m almost certain trumpists will try and pull an Erdogan, and do something horrible to justify consolidation of power and declare national emergency for some reason or another. After Kavanaugh hearings, I just don’t see how this country could pull itself together again anymore. And these kinds of things that keep happening with increasing frequency are only the prelude
https://qz.com/1423570/proud-boys-members-werent-arrested-after-violently-assaulting-a-man-in-new-york/
only showing that the police is with the trumpists, and so is most of the army – and any left-wing violence, real or fictitious, would only play into their hands.
I can totally see them arresting local politicians, declaring Democratic Party illegal (making no distinction with Democratic socialists), arresting diBlasio and Cuomo and Warren and whoever they can get their hands on, and no one able to do a thing about it.
I can’t talk to anyone about it – I want to do something – go away, hide, but I’m not the only one who has to make these decisions, so I just go through the motions, go to work, day care, home again, and thinking of how we might have just about a month of peace left, until Kristallnacht, and inability to do anything about it is utterly stupefying. I so hope to be wrong and to be overreacting.
I can totally see my parents, afterwards, earnestly explaining that well, Democrats gave in and became mob, it’s a pity, but fascism is the only way to handle these people, but see, you still have a paycheck, it doesn’t really affect your daily life, right, and maybe it’s not safe for you and little one to stay in that big dangerous city anyway so why don’t you move out here?

L asked me today why do we have to grow up and never become smaller again.

Not the right place either.