Had to go to a dinner with a client but did not get to choose the place. My coworker did.
It was the kind of place that I kind of forgot existed in this city and that I definitely don’t miss – I learned pretty immediately after moving here that these are the kinds of places I want to avoid. But he is older than me(?) and didn’t(?).

A giant dining room full of men, men, men everywhere, mostly young (but one or two older ones at each table), mostly wearing shirts – white, blue or pink – like a uniform. Din making it almost impossible to hear the two poor Russian women (the client, they came all the way from Moscow for this) sitting across the table from us, visibly uncomfortable, but taking it all in, wide eyed – it’s their first time in New York.

My coworker, the one who picked this place and who apparently goes there often, told me afterwards how the front bar area, later in the night, is full of “cougars”. They are all “models”, he proudly remarked.

This is why I want nothing to do with this industry, and yet I always get dragged right back into it.

There is no royal road to definition. The view that philosophical concepts must be pinned down, identified, and used only when they exactly follow the dictates of the logic of identity is a symptom of the quest for certainty, the all-too-human impulse to trim intellectual needs down to pocket size.

Max Horkheimer
from Eclipse of Reason (via lexaproletariat)

I want to be on an island.

One of the two:

– An island in Maine. I’ve never been to one, but it’s probably like Acadia but quieter.

– An island in Mediterranean, a quiet and sleepy one. I’ve never been to one, but I imagine it’s probably like the Turkish coast, somewhere like a formerly Greek town of Çeşme…