Everything I ever do that is productive useful or positive is out of guilt
And why are there gunshots YET AGAIN outside its impossible to sleep.
..and yes I know I should and can and am capable of changing, just saying that I want to is not enough I have to actually truly want to.
Being this hated – I know it’s not real – it can’t be – I know it’s the product of the general state of being, but being unable to do anything about it is the worst.
Watch an Impromptu Medieval Icelandic Hymn Sung in a Modern Train Station
For everyone who had a crappy week,
it’s over.
Here are some nice Icelanders who have finally come and will make everything better.
Watch an Impromptu Medieval Icelandic Hymn Sung in a Modern Train Station

@feelsearch this has never happened to me, though I wish it had.
The opposite, however, has: sleeping through the alarm, and having to do everything faster than usual.
I used to think that the most anti-capitalist gestures left had to do with love, particularly love poetry: to write a love poem and give it to the one you desired, seemed to me a radical resistance. But now I see I was wrong.
The most anti-capitalist protest is to care for another and to care for yourself. To take on the historically feminized and therefore invisible practice of nursing, nurturing, caring. To take seriously each other’s vulnerability and fragility and precarity, and to support it, honor it, empower it. To protect each other, to enact and practice community. A radical kinship, an interdependent sociality, a politics of care.
Johanna Hedva, “Sick Woman Theory” (via ambientlight)
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This is the basis, essentially, of the Walkaway gift-economy.

At the playground at the wealthier side of the park, someone left a toy till with at least $40 of real banknotes
Loneliness is personal, and it is also political. Loneliness is collective; it is a city. As to how to inhabit it, there are no rules and nor is there any need to feel shame, only to remember that the pursuit of individual happiness does not trump or excuse our obligations to each another. We are in this together, this accumulation of scars, this world of objects, this physical and temporary heaven that so often takes on the countenance of hell. What matters is kindness; what matters is solidarity. What matters is staying alert, staying open, because if we know anything from what has gone before us, it is that the time for feeling will not last.
