I don’t know why I care, but the fact that I can’t seem to be able to connect with anyone here at work puts my entire long term future here in question.

Of my entire day, I spend:
8 hours at work
3 hours commuting
3 hours with R, much of which involves making and eating food and planning the day and week while avoiding topics like politics
1 hour reading, which includes this site
6 hours sleeping
3 hours with L, which is one part delightful beyond comparison, one part exhausting beyond comparison

That’s it. I don’t have the time to talk to friends anymore (anyway everyone seems stuck in their own rut), I don’t even know I have friends anymore, and the twice-monthly coop shifts are the peak of my social life.

Work is the biggest part of the day, and it’s the most soul deadening. It is not stressful, which was the whole reason I walked away from the Old Company, but neither was the time I was with the Pathetic Company, but at least I had a semblance of friends there. And expectations there were lower. Here, I literally don’t talk to anyone all day.